Never Enough

Moments of panic,

followed by

moments of calm

I can do this

I can do this

Sometimes it's too much

Sometimes not enough

I have no idea how to do it all.

How to heal, protect and conquer

How to grow, manifest and dream

How to be all things for all times, at all times

Solving myself like a riddle, a problem

something to be fixed, rewired, changed

trying to create

with the canvas of accomplishment

and capability

trying, trying trying

all the time

its exhausting

and it's never  enough

The Last Laugh

And when I do, remember this

I'll be laughing

and you'll pay me to tell you how I did it

to share with you the secret

not behind success

but inside it

and I'll laugh

and compassionately tell you anyway

because my misery

is your misery

through the grace of knowing it